The Luminous Spirit

  The Good The Bad And The Ugly Of Internal Fetal Monitors During Birth                    photo by DFID - UK Department for International Development is licensed under CC BY 2.0 So my personal opinion is to definitely research this prior to birth because when you are in labor you only have probably at most 15 minutes to mull this over before making a decision and let’s be honest, that just isn't enough time for a true informed, educated decision. Look up the pros and cons and write it down. Speak to your doctor about it and then together you can decide the reasons to or not to use an internal fetal monitor. Then you both can be prepared during labor if anything were to go sideways. You have already made the decision together and you know what you both are in for. Fetal scalp electrode (internal monitor) I am not 100% against these because There are times where I feel that yes it would be best to use these in situations that really ...

How can I promote a fertility course when I keep failing at sustaining my own pregnancies? Man if you only knew how many times I have been asked that.  Kelly, how can you expect people to listen to you, believe you, and be willing to pay for your advice when you can’t even achieve what you are telling people they can?  Yeah, I can achieve it. As a matter of fact, I have 4 different times. Yes it is true I have had 22 miscarriages since 2009. From many chemical pregnancies all the way to a 2nd trimester loss. A loss is a loss. Here is what you truly need to focus on. You see, every live child I have today was the end result of a specific decision I made. Every miscarriage I had was the direct result of me not wanting to have another but not taking care of my body and paying attention to it  enough to nurture my womb to sustain a life.  You see. Pregnancy 1. I used vitex and evening primrose. Pregnancy 2. I used evening primrose. Pregnancy 3 I was trying to kickstart ...

This is a post today that is a deep one so if you are triggered with the mention of loss, please ignore this post today. This is the trauma of miscarriage (my 2021 experience)   So I don’t normally write diary type blog posts, but I felt the need to after a deep meditation I just came out of. Good ole posts like these can seem long winded but literally take me all of 30 minutes to write so here goes. This passed year has been a fucking world wind of emotions for me. Just straight torture emotionally. January I felt my best friend was pulling away and I just honestly didn't understand why. Then I had my billionth miscarriage at 8w4d. I have so much guilt around that. You see, I had no intention of having another baby considering my last son is so attached to me and still breastfeeding. I felt like I was replacing him. I was going to hurt him for bringing another baby in and doing all the things I am doing with him. How replaced and less important he would feel and just betrayed by h...

This is my journey as a radical birth keeper. There are many things I have always wanted to do but I never knew where to begin. I was just in my early 20’s when my gynecologist told me that I should become a fertility specialist. That I could help so many young women who have no clue about their own bodies. I laughed and said, I do know about as much as you. He giggled and said, you should hold classes. Many years go by and I pursued other careers. I'm in my 30’s now and I never followed that path. Let me just be real here, public speaking isn't my thing. I am terrified about speaking to people. Especially face to face or large crowds. "Doctor Hand"   by  Truthout.org  is licensed under  CC BY-NC-ND 2.0   I know a shit ton more now than I did then and I have healed my body temporarily to conceive 4 babies after being told by 4 different doctors that there was nothing they could do. They explained that I have unexplained infertility. All of my bloodwork was fine....

 W hat to know about Mullein Photo above: Common Mullein in the first year Latin Name: Verbascum thapsus                                             Family: Scrophulariaceae Growing zone : 3-9 and prefers partial sun and dry soil.  It is very hard to transplant because of its long taproot. In the spring you can find saplings from the previous years plants near the brown stalks that were once the flowers. You can gather the seeds and plant them in the fall. Identification:   Leaves : are soft and fuzzy like a teddy bear or velvet. They grow low to the ground in the first year and only foliage. First year they stay pretty small so on average no more than about 6-10 inches in circumference. The leaves are oblong and have a rounded point at the tip. They are silvery green gray in color. The l...