The Luminous Spirit

How can I promote a fertility course when I keep failing at sustaining my own pregnancies? Man if you only knew how many times I have been asked that.  Kelly, how can you expect people to listen to you, believe you, and be willing to pay for your advice when you can’t even achieve what you are telling people they can?  Yeah, I can achieve it. As a matter of fact, I have 4 different times. Yes it is true I have had 22 miscarriages since 2009. From many chemical pregnancies all the way to a 2nd trimester loss. A loss is a loss. Here is what you truly need to focus on. You see, every live child I have today was the end result of a specific decision I made. Every miscarriage I had was the direct result of me not wanting to have another but not taking care of my body and paying attention to it  enough to nurture my womb to sustain a life.  You see. Pregnancy 1. I used vitex and evening primrose. Pregnancy 2. I used evening primrose. Pregnancy 3 I was trying to kickstart ...

This is a post today that is a deep one so if you are triggered with the mention of loss, please ignore this post today. This is the trauma of miscarriage (my 2021 experience)   So I don’t normally write diary type blog posts, but I felt the need to after a deep meditation I just came out of. Good ole posts like these can seem long winded but literally take me all of 30 minutes to write so here goes. This passed year has been a fucking world wind of emotions for me. Just straight torture emotionally. January I felt my best friend was pulling away and I just honestly didn't understand why. Then I had my billionth miscarriage at 8w4d. I have so much guilt around that. You see, I had no intention of having another baby considering my last son is so attached to me and still breastfeeding. I felt like I was replacing him. I was going to hurt him for bringing another baby in and doing all the things I am doing with him. How replaced and less important he would feel and just betrayed by h...

 I bet you are wondering now why should you worry about men's fertility ? (Photo by Sebastián-Dario is licensed under CC BY-NC 2.0) You may think I am going off on a cliff here talking about men’s reproductive health when my focus is on women’s reproductive health. Well let’s dive in. Without men and their sperm it doesn’t matter what our bodies do when dropping that egg because there will be nothing to fertilize it. Therefore no pregnancy can occur and our population will be null. It’ll be the end of the human world as we know it. Sounds like one of those conspiracy horror flicks. Face it. We need sperm just as much as the sperm needs the egg and our uterus. Harmony right? So this is why I will speak on men’s health at times too.  (Photo by ntr23 is licensed under CC BY-NC-SA 2.0) So now you see the reason to worry about men’s fertility?  Brain melt moment here. So while 100-300 million sperm are created each day, it takes on average 72 days for the seminiferous tubules ...