The Luminous Spirit

  I know you and I have gotten pretty close but it is time to move to a paid platform. I am leaving this blog behind. The blog name will most likely be the same but most other things will look different.  You will be able to purchase my tinctures and salves straight from the source..ME. How exciting will that be? Everything of mine will be in it’s very on place but all together in one space! Prices will probably be a little cheaper too because im not having to pay ETSY fees anymore and I have the ability to set my own standards. You will be able to have access to my courses and potentially videos straight from the membership part of the site. So there are many great things about to happen in 2022 and I am super excited.  Right now my site isn't paid so the website isn't the same link as this one so here it is . I am just trying to do a bit more housecleaning on the website before it is paid and I have everything where I want it to be. This isn't going to be one long blog po

  The Good The Bad And The Ugly Of Internal Fetal Monitors During Birth                    photo by DFID - UK Department for International Development is licensed under CC BY 2.0 So my personal opinion is to definitely research this prior to birth because when you are in labor you only have probably at most 15 minutes to mull this over before making a decision and let’s be honest, that just isn't enough time for a true informed, educated decision. Look up the pros and cons and write it down. Speak to your doctor about it and then together you can decide the reasons to or not to use an internal fetal monitor. Then you both can be prepared during labor if anything were to go sideways. You have already made the decision together and you know what you both are in for. Fetal scalp electrode (internal monitor) I am not 100% against these because There are times where I feel that yes it would be best to use these in situations that really are life or death for the infant. I want you to be

How can I promote a fertility course when I keep failing at sustaining my own pregnancies? Man if you only knew how many times I have been asked that.  Kelly, how can you expect people to listen to you, believe you, and be willing to pay for your advice when you can’t even achieve what you are telling people they can?  Yeah, I can achieve it. As a matter of fact, I have 4 different times. Yes it is true I have had 22 miscarriages since 2009. From many chemical pregnancies all the way to a 2nd trimester loss. A loss is a loss. Here is what you truly need to focus on. You see, every live child I have today was the end result of a specific decision I made. Every miscarriage I had was the direct result of me not wanting to have another but not taking care of my body and paying attention to it  enough to nurture my womb to sustain a life.  You see. Pregnancy 1. I used vitex and evening primrose. Pregnancy 2. I used evening primrose. Pregnancy 3 I was trying to kickstart my period and induc

This is a post today that is a deep one so if you are triggered with the mention of loss, please ignore this post today. This is the trauma of miscarriage (my 2021 experience)   So I don’t normally write diary type blog posts, but I felt the need to after a deep meditation I just came out of. Good ole posts like these can seem long winded but literally take me all of 30 minutes to write so here goes. This passed year has been a fucking world wind of emotions for me. Just straight torture emotionally. January I felt my best friend was pulling away and I just honestly didn't understand why. Then I had my billionth miscarriage at 8w4d. I have so much guilt around that. You see, I had no intention of having another baby considering my last son is so attached to me and still breastfeeding. I felt like I was replacing him. I was going to hurt him for bringing another baby in and doing all the things I am doing with him. How replaced and less important he would feel and just betrayed by h